Monday, 26 December 2005

Last Xmas, I Gave You My Heart

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This was my Christmas...Mum, James, Darryl, Grandma, Grandpa, Uncle Clayton and Auntie Nikki were all there to share it with me...twas a good day!

Odd though, instead of spending the last few hours of Christmas Eve reading Chrissy books and trying to be all full of christmas spirit like I have done every year, I spent nearly 2 hours talking to good old Harry about all kinds of things...I wonder what I'll be doing next Christmas Eve?

EDIT 10/07/10: I don't even really remember Christmas Eve 2006, but it was during your YouTube days, so you were probably on the computer. Loser.

Getting arrested? Smoking Marijuana in Nepal sounds interesting...I think I'll do that.

Everybody has gone to bed, and I feel quite lonely.

Love Always and Forever... (Latro)
The Lonely Mistletoe and The Twinkling Star

I can't say I'm not grateful though, because I am. I am so blessed, thankyou Lord for a wonderful year! I love you muchly!"

Sunday, 25 December 2005

Merry Chrismukkah!

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Merry Chrismukkah!
Oooo, we're being girly now!
This is gonna be a really good christmas, suprisingly enuf.
I'm really happy, and have never seen the tree so full of prezzies and never seen sooo much food!
Love you all muchly!
Latro...The Happy Little Elf and The Slippery Shark Slide.

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maryam Alaradi - 10 Feb., 2007 - Delete
HARRY POTTER ROCKS!!!!!!!.....sorry just had to say that..Anyways, I was just surfing youtube, and i saw one of your vids..then went to the fansite..then here..funny how that happens..or not..

Friday, 23 December 2005

Going Backwards

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Living with my Grandmother has turned me into quite a cruel and heartless person, once again. Sigh. I mean dammit, I spent all last year changing that and turning myself into an innocent, good person again, who had to be nice every second to people..well, not theatre people. I don't know why but Theatre brings out an evil side of me. Impatient, bossy and rude, and I don't mean to be, but I become some kind of drama queen on some kind of pill that makes them go psycho. My behaviour during the show of The Wiz had to be controlled and tied down so much, because I could of snapped everyones heads of for being in my way or touching my stuff, so I had to bite my tongue so many times, but when I did speak I felt like such a fake. Meh, I can't help who I was, but I can help who I am.

I just have got to be a nicer person, I don't know why I don't repect my friends as much as I should, they are so good to, I have done this all before, typed this all before and who really cares? Hmm? Not you, I'm sure.

I got an OP of 13, so thats cool. All my smart friends will be like, you are dumb and suck, but I'm all like, hey dudes, I don't even need it - SO SCREW YOU!!!

I have a cold, bah, I say, I say bah.

I went shopping and got lots and lots of presents for my family, I didn't bother buying friends prezzies because I dont have much money AND I don't expect anything from them. So yeah. That's sorted.

Besides who gives prezzies to friends at Christmas? I mean, thats so lame. You give them a card and a candy cane and thats that. And if you are anything like me, you dont even go that far, or you have really good intentions and start writing christmas cards, but then you never finish or post them. Every other year than this one I have wrote everybody a christmas card on really pretty cards and all, but have never given them out. If I kept them all, you'd all probably have like 5 years worth of cards...woo! Spiffy.

This year I was with Sarah and we wrote out like 3 cards, but we were also watching a movie (Down With Love) so we didnt get very far, but at least we tried...anyway my space has been invaded so I will depart now!

The Wivering Violet and The Octagonal Christmas Ornament!

Sunday, 18 December 2005

Santa Is Coming To Town...

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Finally I feel like Christmas is here,
finally I feel full of holiday cheer,
I can smell the food and the love in the air,
I can feel Christmas,
it is everywhere!

When I started the first sentence I did not intend for it to turn into a cheesy Hallmark like poem, it's not really up to Hallmark standards but let's just pretend, okay?

But maybe I guess that's what is going on, sentences aren't just sentences anymore, they are poems and songs and full of love...because that is how I do feel, full of the need to give.
Why? Well it may seem odd, well, not really odd, more wrong. Not correct. Walking around stores and thinking about presents and buying presents shouldn't be what gets you in the mood for Christmas, it really shouldnt be.

It should be the fact that Christmas is here, that Santa Claus is coming to town, that the tree is up, the lights are sparkling and we are all nearly on holidays and can relax and enjoy ourselves.
For some people that is what makes them happy at Christmas, and that was once all I needed as well...but now, it's the idea of presents; buying and recieving (but mainly buying, which means I still have my heart in the right place) gifts - it's just so exhilerating. You feel so good about yourself.

I have bought a gift for someone else. That was nice. I am nice.

And therefore, for once, you don't see yourself as a bad and selfish person and it feels so good, that you can't help but smile and be happy and welcome Christmas with open arms.

For some people buying gifts is what they hate the most about Christmas, they find it stressful and tiresome...but you have just got to be relaxed about it. All that matters is your closest family...Mother, Father, Brother, Sister and children...the cousins and grandma's and pa's don't really have to be stressed over that much. I never have.

One thing I miss about our Christmas's at my house is that nobody really puts in the effort for the Christmas Day lunch like they use to, when I was little. These days it is just a roast and some salad and bread, and always pudding. That, to some people is enough, and yes, I agree, it is! Too much sometimes...but the feast of Christmas just looks so spectacular and lasts for days afterwards that I don't know why we don't go to the trouble of it anymore.

I remember as a child sitting at that huge table and looking around the chicken, and the cold ham and the warm meat and the salads of different types and the breads, sometimes that is more exciting than the presents.

Maybe it is because I value my stomach a little bit more than my possessions, and that is why I so desire the Christmas feast.

It is not just that, it is the fact that these days the roast is on Christmas Eve, and all you have for the Christmas Day lunch is the left overs...that makes it relaxed, yes, but also boring!!! Where is the excitement!? The presentation of the turkey and all the lovely things that you make.

I know it is hard for parents and the adults to cook these things on such a hot summer day, but, GOSH, it is so worth it.

I have been thinking a lot lately on what I will do for my children when I finally have them, which hopefully will not be within 5 years...or maybe even 10...but man, I am not going to spoil them at all! I've been too spoilt as a child, but I am most grateful for it, BUT, I will make holidays, and not just Christmas but all holidays Easter and all that, BIG. I will out do myself every holiday.

EDIT 10/07/10: I had a habit as a child, and, I guess, as teenager, of planning perfect scenarios. This weird obsession is one of the reasons why I took to the Sims so well... Thankfully, that part of me is much more relaxed now and I no longer waste days away on Sims. I can't afford to.

The Christmas tree will be decorated by everyone and everyone must be in the same room while it is happening. The Christmas Eve will be nice and quiet but exciting, full of drives to see lights and games and music and stories, the Day will be grand! The lunch will be huge, the presents will be good, and useful but also just fun (when they are younger) and will just be so exciting so that you can get excited when Christmas comes around.

Not like this year, which was just like, oh my gosh, is it Christmas next week? Damn, I haven't even got any presents yet! Boy, that went quick.

It should be countdowned and celebrated and rejoiced!

Today the little baby Jesus was born harray, who would eventually save us all harray! EDIT 10/07/10: Oh, Caitlin, what a strange phase you were in. Thank goodness you don't really give a shit anymore. My past three Christmases have been thrifty and mainly about people. Eric, Johnny, Mum and Darryl...

Anyway, thats my rant done...gosh, I hope one day not to soon, I live up to my plans.
For the meanwhile, though I am sure I will check in again...
Merry Christmas!
I hope it is a happy time for you all. Even if you don't believe.
Latro & Love Always The Peppermint Slug and The Rejoicing Bunny Rabbit!

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111_Court_111 - 19 Dec., 2005 - Delete
hehehe... I agree with ALL MERRY CHRISTMAS caitlin...btw WHAT IS YOUR OP!!?!?!?!
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Emily - 21 Dec., 2005 - Delete
hey caity babe, Em checking in.. again.. How are you? I'm fan-freaking-tastic. got a job, amazing boyfriend and get this: i got into Extension! Yay! What have you been up to? We have to meet up. still. Oh we are so slack.. Love your guts, Em xx.

Thursday, 15 December 2005

Workity Work Work

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Work Work Work
That is all I do - oo - oo
Must Work Work Work
There is a lot to do - o - oo


Those were the opening lyrics for my Cinderella musical I wrote when I was in like, grade 10.
I thought it was gold then...

It is actually pretty funny, I'd love to see it performed by a special few at Phoenix, most of the characters are based on my friends...
It's also like, my version of Cinderella, so it's cooler and more dramatic - woo...
But the main reason why I wrote those titles is that I am working quite a lot, and that seems to be the perfect thing to go with it.

Now I know I dont have it as bad as some of you, waking early or working past midnight, I don't have any of that shite, and my hours and days are flexible and easy breezy beautiful Cover I really have nothing to complain about. But I am lazy and don't really feel like work, but I love my work...good old Blockbuster, it's the best casual job I'll stop complaining.

Maybe it's not that I'm complaining, it's just that I have never worked so much in my life, and it takes a little getting used, I sound like such a spoilt little brat.

I probably am one, but I am nice to all the other spoilt little brats and nice to non-brats, so it's balanced.

I had an interesting day with Tamika, Emily and Dee...lots of driving around, sitting around and talking and swimming around...I'm especially intrigued by a certain topic which I shall label cleverly as Y.R...oooh, who am I talking about...any clever person could figure it out. EDIT 10/07/10: Y.R.? Who am I talking about? Oh. Harry Callister. Yeah, I was crushin' at that time.

Anyway, the fact is, is that I am intrigued and want to end all this waiting once and for all and find anything there...
See ya later fellow night owls
The Sparky Window-Washer and The Disenfectant Umbrella

Friday, 9 December 2005

I have been...

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I have been...

performing in The Wiz...

working @ Blockbuster...

to a Blockbuster party...

missing somebody...

buying music, like James Blunt... EDIT 10/07/10: Crazy. Last time I heard that song he became famous for, I was in Staples looking for scissors, and I just muttered to myself the whole time, "I hate this song. This song is stupid. Why is it so stupid?"

getting into You're A Good Man, Charlie Linus...

watching lots and lots of movies...

staying up til 2.30/3am every night...

playing with my tamigotchi, Iliah...2nd generation...

on the computer, a lot...

getting up late every day...

trying to get money to pay all the people I owe money too...

buying dresses, which is why I am not paying the people...

putting of decorating the christmas tree...

too lazy to get credit to reply to ppls texts...

adoring Robin Williams...

making my room messy...

missing my Mummy...

living a really unusual non-school life...

getting ready for an audition...

fearing for my future but also looking forward to it too...

planning to get a singing teacher... EDIT 10/07/10: Five years later and I'm still planning on getting a singing teacher. Wow.

feeling sad about Harry Potter, and loving the movie...

not taking care of myself very well...

walking around for half the day in what i slept in...

having good skin and then crap skin...

attacked by weird winged bugs...

writing plays and monologues...

hating the sunlight...

loving the moonlight...

What have you been doing?

Latro... The Junky Monkey and The Funky Dunky...omgosh, do you remember that dance - so funny!

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Emily - 8 Dec., 2005 - Delete
Caity! Hey lovely, i texted you a few days ago.. no reply, sob. i like your blog entrys- i can know whats going on in your life! Hope all is well,. Love you girl, Em x.x.

Friday, 2 December 2005

It's All Over...Hopefully Something Will Begin

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Well, it's all over.

The formal was really really good. More fun than Schoolies. Everyone said they liked my dress, so that was cool. But I look really unattractive and fat in some of the photos which is disappointing, because I don't feel unattractive and fat... wah ...

I was pretty stressed getting ready, but tell me one girl who wasnt, well there was probably a lot, but not many.

The photo session at Vanessa's house was wicked, and my lovely Harry got me this beautiful corsage and looked really suave! I can't wait to get the pro copies of the photos...better ring Vanessa soon. EDIT 10/07/10: I never got those photos... Sigh.

We went to the formal in this really tacky party bus, but it was really fun and we really got noticed when we arrived which was cool.

The dinner was good, and I won the female Oscar award, the good old Brailey won the male one, we rock! Remember don't use the prize til we win Gold! GOLD!!! But the best part of the night wasnt the socialising or anything, but all the dancing we did. We all just went ker-azy, it was so fun. But the DJ didn't play Busta Move so that really sucked.

The after party was quite interesting too, a certain English man who probably had a bit too much to drink and found my face pretty in dark - but we all know what I really look like - made my night quite amusing. I have seriously not been that amused by a guy trying to get a girls attention in ages, but because it was interesting, I found him mildly cool...that's right Ashton - I do in fact think you rock! And I couldnt not escape his charm at the end, sigh, but it was rather hot...but anyway - that is the most I have revealed on this space! So no more talky, talky for Caitlin about that.

At the end of the night, which was early early morning, we were all kicked out and Harry darling made us walk for ages so we'd be closer for a taxi, but his brother picked us up anyway, and then we all slept with Harry at his house. Which was rather hot and awkward when I woke up, which was around 10.

The Grad was alright, I didnt get sad, just happy and crazy. All I cared about was the food. I wasn't there at that school long enough to get attached, and wasnt social enough to get too attached to the people either, which was sad.

Schoolies was piss poor. The first night was good, but too crowded. The rest of the week was okay. It had some good moments, seeing Corpse Bride, shopping with the Theatre people and then going and seeing Brothers Grimm with SarahBear, having my deep and meaningful convo with Grant, and floaty pool surfing with Alex, Tenielle and Sarah. I ran out of money, so I was really determined to come back on Friday, cuz I wasnt having any fun. I spent the whole time complaining to Harry on the phone practically. Wasted so much credit.

That night at my house by myself, I heard banging noises around the house and upstairs and I freaked out, I put on shoes and stuff and grabbed my mobile in case I had to run and call 000 at the same time, and then I walked through the house poking 2 knives into every single nook and cranny, it was so crap!

Anyway, got to the 2nd round of the QUT Acting course so that's cool. But that is also all. I didnt really wanna go there anyway, though it wouldve been cool.

This week was basically just preparing for The Wiz. We had our first show tonight, but it felt more like a full Dress and Tech rehearsal so thats what I'm going to call it...but it had an audience. I didnt feel that swell about my performance, or the shows...but anyway I better go cuz there is a storm coming over and might cut the computer off! Tata! aRGH!!!

love you
The Allergic-To-Straw-Scarecrow and The scary Lightning Flash!

Little_Miss_Silv - 2 Dec., 2005 - Delete
WOW wow WOW wow *slaps self* WOW Ok.. so i've finally seen all your formal photos.. or at least some.. DID YOU SEE MINE???? I have a few points to make.. first off.. WOW you looked hot and OMG we both wore pink :D :D :D And your mom looks totally hot too.. she looks.. something.. (if me saying your mom looked hot freaks you out.. sorry, but it's totally true.. tell her i said 'hi'... not in a suss way.. just straight out crazy HI!!) Who's the dude you were with? orange suit is something i never would have thought of.. oh.. and who's the girl in the green dress? that dress is hot.. tell her i said that dress HOT! *thinks* i think that's all i had to say on that subject.. did you cry at graduation? i didn't.. i made a big ass cheer hugged my friends told them i'd see them at pizza hut.. and left with my bubby's (that's Jai) hand in mine.. happy to be alive. teh end of school XD XD then.. there was schoolies.. one whole week of.. hanging with my bub? nah.. it was cool with my other friends too.. i got plastered twice.. after the second time, Jai made me promise never to drink AGAIN.. *sighs* never mind.. did you do anything? And now.. it's back to normal life.. bidding my time until i learn my fate.. some fateful day in late december *sigh* here's to the dream of university *makes toast* GO PSYCH AND CRIMINOLOGY!!! *must go change preference.. now* Well lots of love kiddo.. stay rad.. Silv

EDIT 10/07/10:

The lady commenting above was one of my dearest friends during Years 4 to 7, but we were probably at our closest in Year 7 and part of Year 8. We don't speak much anymore, but we did just find each other on Facebook, which was really exciting. I got so excited by her messages that I got all overwhelmed and couldn't reply back and haven't since... I better get on that.

I adore Silvia. She's gorgeous, funny and very smart. When we were younger we said that we'd live in Brisbane together in a flat, and I'd study Ballet at QUT and Silvia would study Interior Design. I loved that dream. It changed, but it was such a joyous plan, that I still hold it close to my heart - even though it didn't happen, and it's no longer what I want, I don't regret having it. It was sweet.