Why do you like making going up to someone your a fan of,
or someone who's work you respect,
more complicated than it needs to be?
You don't have to have an entire conversation planned out to
go talk to people youre a fan of.. geez.
Otherwise you're going to be writing or saying that alot
more. Just go up to whoever it is next time and stop
overthinking it so damn much. haha
I don't always make it complicated. Sometimes I will simply be a fan because I'm in the mood to be a fan, but I mostly just don't like the glaze in their eyes I see as they receive my compliment. When I meet the people I admire, I want my meeting with them to matter and it rarely does. I've seen and met quite a few celebrities or people that I admire very much after living in New York City, so perhaps I'm a little jaded about it.
Is it so wrong to want to be a memory for them, even if it's a faint one? There's no point in being just another face in the crowd full of empty admiration.
I suppose you could say that not saying anything makes you a face in the crowd... but if I am not utterly compelled to say something to them, then I don't see it as a problem for me.
This particular evening was just a little awkward because it was a small bar and we'd constantly lock eyes (the same thing happened the next Monday with a different comedian) - and if we were in a party setting amongst mutual friends we'd probably eventually talk, but because it was a bar, it was just weird.
But yes, I should have just "been the fan" that night. I shouldn't find that position as degrading as I do.
