I can't believe that this world has reached such a terrible crime & murder rate that we are able to make it television. And not just SVU and Criminal Intent or any of that shite, but reality TV...like The First 48 Hours or whatever its called...which follows police for the first 48 hours of discovering a murder...this show is so horribly graphic, showing real victims, real crime scenes...real blood and fatal injuries...and real people suffering from hearing of their loved ones being murdered. I just watched this one old lady on TV, after hearing that her friend had been murdered and her mouth fell open, and her eyes were so wide and she was so frail and weak looking that it truly was a horrifying sight...seeing someone recieve that bad news.
And I can't believe that after all these years, all these centuries of us hearing about slavery and learning all those lessons about the rights of humanity and the cruelty people have suffered throughout Earth's life span...that we still traffic humans, still sell sex slaves...and I can't believe that there are humans out there that are making the demand for these poor people.
I could not imagine being sold as a sex slave or being touched by a man so much older than me...can you imagine the pain - emotionally and physically...and the trauma that you would suffer so that you either got seriously screwed up or became numb to all feeling...?
Do you people even know about this? Do we even realize that every second of the day that we are worrying about that idiot boy liking me or our boss having a bitch about us...that somewhere in the world not too far from us, young children are being sold for sex to 40+ year old men and their "boss" is currently selling them to a larger market, putting them through horrible conditions in vans or containers and selling them like cattle...beating them, starving them, killing them if they let their "leader" down??
Do we even realize this...I'm am fucking glad that I do now. All my worries and troubles are so much simpler and so much fucking easier to deal with... I have got it so friggin lucky that it is unreal...I mean - so do you...so don't you dare have an Emo whinge you silly people, think about the real issues in this world...and the kids out there that are your age and would give everything they had to be able to live in your oh-so-cruel world. EDIT 09/16/10: Says I, when my blogs are just me whining all the time. Sigh.
I can't believe this...I mean, I can...but it's so horrible, I don't want to. I can't believe that this world is so beautiful but we are humans are so filthy and disgusting... We all cheat, lie, steal, hate and feel all those stupid primal things that were stamped into our genes thousands of years ago...
This world is beautiful...
"I am in a world of shit."
Yet, I want to still live in it, I want to still love in it and have a happy life...I want to still be faithful to a God and be kind to all people...
I swear that I will do something to help these people. I don't care if that means charities or adoption...just one little thing to make someones life better...
Geez, if I could be Angelina Jolie right now...I'd be also concentrating on what is happening on her own soil, her own continent...some of the worst of the world is right at her doorstep.
...but in my own selfish world...I'll be booking a driving test soon, working too much, regretting auditioning for the pajama game, and signing up as the sound technician for Cinderella Kids...and loving the Altar Boyz - google them.
Wow, I thought my life was difficult and frustrating...it's just so unfair to be so unequal with so many other people in the world...if we could only have equal footing...I don't know what else to say about it.
Humans suck - can't live with them, can't live without them.
Latro - The ... fuck it.
EDIT 09/16/10: Stand up or shut up, Caitlin.