Excited like a Kid @ Christmas, as Tired as a Baby Blanket...

I got the job! $9.75 an hour! Way better than Blockbuster, but I'm still working there too! I have a shift tonight and a 7/11 training shift tomorrow! Woah - I'm now going to be quite well off! I'm so excited! A city girl, and Emily works in the city and I can stay over her place when I work late and all that tralalala...ARGH! I better go home and learn my lines on Thursday for TGITRD. Either that or Saturday morning, eek!

I think I'm going to enjoy it, going to the city and such...I think I will like being in that atmosphere...and the shop's tiny and easy to me.

Only thing to worry about is robberies...they even have a COPS policy! HAHAHA I laughed my head off!

I also have got all I need to get to UK - I don't even need a Visa, my British Passport is the ultimate tool, I'm so happy my Dad was born in the UK - I've got loads of booklets on it and Gran said she'll pay for my ticket! So all I've gotta save up for now is spending money, and they say you should have about $2000 to be comfortable - woah!

June is looking like it's going to be quite an interesting month, I'm so excited.

I don't know what my Mum's doing, she's in Vanuatu and because her plane got delayed she was given an extra day, so we thought she would ring us and let us know the definites...it's Wednesday and we thought she was meant to back yesterday...I think she's taking some extra days of holiday...she better let us know where she is!

Anywhoo, got to get ready for work, I love my family and I love my life right now...it's very exciting...but I am very tired, but I'll cope, just got to eat lots of veges and get plenty of sleep - hmm, I don't think that will be a problem anymore! :)

I'll get to see the Real Love short film next week too, I hope I did okay. Seb rang me to say that is was good, so hopefully he is right!

Love Always & Latro The Excited Kid At Christmas and The Worn Out Baby Blanket!

P.S: HARRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!

16 Year Olds Don't Have Imaginary Friends!

Do you know what I did? Of course not, unless you are God...or I'm on some reality TV show and you are Big Brother...? Hmm? While I wait for you to decide who you are, I'll tell you what happened yesterday...

Yesterday, I discovered Panic! at the Disco...I am listening to them now. I've got to say - not bad, not bad at all. They are quite entertaining...might be good enough to actually go out and buy their album. EDIT 10/17/10: I never purchased their first album, but I did buy their second one on iTunes. I enjoy their upbeat music from time to time.

"Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?"

Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off - P!

I went ice skating yesterday too- I love ice skating. I can skate pretty well, all the ballet training, you know. I met Lachlan, Blake and David. Emily and Lachlan are in to each other and Blake, David and I were the cheerleaders on the sidelines to make them feel good. Lachlan is a good bloke, and I approve. Blake is studying at Bible college to be a Pastor...I like nicknaming him Pastor, but not to his face, in case he is offended. David is studying business, and Lachlan is studying to be a teacher and he is good at all sports, Emily tells me. And he is an awesome ice skater, very fast and he can do quite a few tricks - he has his own skates. After, we went to McDonalds and got to know each other better, they seem like really good guys, and I wouldn't mind seeing them again. It was refreshing to hang out with new people, especially genuinely nice people, they didn't judge me at all. Very refreshing.

"And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety"

Better If You Do - P!

I love kebabs...and Stones Corner is definitely a place to watch for when it comes to clothes and markets - very, very slick clothes - noice!

"I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality."

I Write Sins, Not Tragedies - Panic! at the Disco

Today I helped Grandma set up for her 60th Birthday party and then went with Seb in his Mum's hot car to Bryn's house to be in his short film - Real Love. I play Milly and Seb played Benny - my imaginary friend who is in love with me, and though I'm being told I'm crazy, I love him too. It's the best love story ever - and I so want it to be a feature film - and I want to be in it...I was just honoured that I was even asked to be in it...I can't wait to see it - it looks gorgeous and Bryn was really happy!

"There are no raindrops on roses or girls in white dresses.
It's sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses
At the shade of the sheets before all the stains
And a few more of your least favorite things."

Build God, Then We'll Talk - P!

Watched other movies directed by Bryn and saw some of my AAA friends in them - which was interesting. Emily is really good, really sweet on screen and really real.

"Give us this day our daily dose of faux affliction
Forgive our sins
Forged at the pulpit with forked tongues selling faux sermons.
Because I am a new wave gospel sharp, and you'll be thy witness
So gentlemen, if you are going to preach then for God sakes preach with conviction!"

I Constantly Thank God For Esteban - P!

I have Hercules rehearsals tomorrow...that all worked out really well. I'm missing 4 performances and have an understudy who I know really well, Rhiannon - she's really nice to watch on stage though, and I like her performance better than mine...if she can pull of mean too then they should just give the part to her.

I'm going to email Tammy soon, ask her to help me find a good desk job - Blockbuster is not doing anything good for me.

Love Always & Latro The Weird Milly and The In-Love Benny.

Aww - I LOVE Real Love!!

P.S: I got to kiss Seb over and over again, so many kisses in such a short amount of time - more than I've had...all year! Woah!

...Now, How Can I Beat Him?...And The Past Escapes From The Reaper...

I have been seriously thinking about getting a new job lately. I even gave my friend a resume for where he works; 7/11.

I would prefer a desk job. Not as a career, but just as a job that will pay me better than Blockbuster. Sitting at a desk all day answering phones and typing up memos might sound like hell to you - but not to me...to me, it sounds like heaven. Blockbuster isn't even a hard job, I am just a bit bored with it. EDIT 10/17/10: I was a really big fan of The Office (UK) at the time, so I was a little deluded.

But I'm good at it now. Sometimes.

Last Friday Emily rang me up randomly and we went to her place in the Brisbane suburbs, where she now lives with her two cousins, and then we went to the city. I got Scott his birthday present and we spent a while in Scarab talking to these cuties; it was there closing night and the guys were all dressed up 70's style, quite nice. Emily and I were really sad about Scarab closing...it was such a relaxing store!

In the morning we went back into the city, that is where Emily works, and I bumped into AAA Emily, which was really cool. So I got the rest of Scott's present with her and talked to her a bit, but unfortunately I had to go to the train station to get home to get ready for a stupid workshop. But it was still cool seeing her, I've got to text her soon and say 'hi!'

The workshop was boring, I didn't learn anything I hadn't already learnt before. It was such a waste of money and time. I dislike them. Plus I had the suckiest script ever, very short and boring. Ugh, I'm getting mad just thinking about it.

Mum and Darryl came up to Grandma's and we hung out and had a little hurrah before they jetted off to Vanuatu for a well deserved holiday. I went to Scott's birthday party that night, and it wasn't too bad. Scott really liked his birthday present and for once we were able to talk without bringing up the past. I was going to leave early, but all these people left to go clubbing and though I really wanted to go and eat with Emma and Sarah, Scott looked so, I don't know, hurt and annoyed when I told him that I was going, so I felt massively guilty and stayed. I'm glad I did though, I got to spend some nice times with Grant and I got to see Courtney sobbing her guts out in the middle of the hallway over Nick (he broke up with her and they had been going out for...max six months? Not sure...) Supposably she was tearing her hair out and biting her arm, and Nick told me (through MSN the next day - where I helped him out with all the knowledge I've gained from watching other people's relationships (usually on screen)) that the only way he could get her to stop was to let her sleep over at his house, which is interesting. I also realized that the real Scott that I fell in love with in 2003 has vanished and turned into this "hot" Scott, who is obsessed with his hair, and his abs and how "hot" he is (which he is, absolutely). That's not the Scott I loved, sure he still has the same comedic timing and what not...and the same love of music, but it's different.

I also was glad that I stayed because I also found out why a certain couple have lasted so long (11 months! Or is it a year?)...because he can say the slightest not-really-annoyed-just-saying comment to her like "Geez where were you, I've been looking all over for you, holding your drink" and she will turn into a little puppy dog and get all small and be like, "You're not really mad at me are you?" When any one could see he was just joking. I would not of done that...if he is gonna have a whinge, bugger him, if you can both get over it - than there's a great relationship! I reckon that other than the really good parts of the friendship based relationship, I believe they have been together for so long because she let's him where the pants all the time and that the sex is probably good. I don't know now, I guess that isn't the worst thing in the world...it sounded worse in my head than it does here typed out.

Anyway back to Scott. He was telling me to lick his abs because I said he looked hot, I fell asleep on the couch, Grant kissed me on the head, and I woke up to Beck telling me that she would take me home...where as we were driving home we got seriously freaked out when a hitchhiker seemed to loom out of nowhere on the highway with arm held out so far onto to the road that we had to swerve to maintain a safe distance at that speed...we got really spooked. I wondered for a while about if he was okay, why was he on the highway? Where is he now?

Sunday, I got up far too early for the amount of sleep that I had and took Mum and Darryl to the airport. I drove home, had a bit of a scare with a truck, but to no harm. It's not a driving day with Caitlin if there isn't at least one mildly life threatening moment. Then Mum rang and said the plane had mechanical faults and would be put back til tomorrow, and they were given a hotel and then she rang and said the plane was going to go at 1:30am that Monday morning...I had crappy rehearsals that day, and had a big game of Buzz the quiz at Courtney and Tenielle's new house - the house I was going to move into. I stayed up all night and morning until 5.30am - I drifted in an out but I had the lights on and the radio blaring...I felt like a mother. When I heard the news and knew they were safe I fell asleep.

Work has been good this week because Beck hasn't been here, and she's going to manage another store for a while so she won't be here more - harray! Found out I have to miss 4 shows of Hercules because of TGITRD, but they found an understudy - Rhiannon from Phoenix, and I was sooo glad it was her, but I am worried because she is really good and I'm going to have to try really super duper hard now. Will was being really pretend mean, being like, "I'm going to like the new Wanda more" and "The new Wanda is much better than you", but then he was hugging me and telling me he loves me (but in a cool way) and we got on really well, but he definitely knows now that I'm a dork. One Big Dork. One of the cool things about Hercules has been meeting Beth - she is 12 turning 13 and really cool. I had a first impression of her that said, this girl probably wont like you, so I maybe I was wrong with my impressions - which I hardly ever am - or maybe I did something...I remember I complimented her heaps and then we just started talking and she told her friends about me and to come see the show cuz of me, so that's really sweet. She is real mature for a 12 year old...she looks 14/15 to me. We get along really well though, and she came and sat on my lap for ages tonight, it made me feel accepted, which I have never felt when it comes to people younger than me, most these days are very superficial (and I'm talking about 8 year olds too) they can see all the faults you have in an instant and wont hesitate to let you know about them and will then treat you like a lesser human being. This has been my experience...so it's cool that I know someone like Beth - who seems like one of the girls that I would be afraid to speak too if we were in the same grade - likes me.

Oh, and I had rehearsals with Seb for his ...damn I can never think of the name when I'm thinking about it...I keep wanting to call it a loop tape...damn. But anyway we had rehearsals for It. And they went really well, Seb and I are really comfortable in rehearsal, we are an acting pair that really connects on screen or on stage, but off stage we can talk about basic things, like acting or ourselves, or him, but other than that I find him really hard to talk too. I find that he constantly talks about himself and gets way to serious for me during conversations about acting. I am serious about it too, but I don't feel like I'm showing off if I discuss it seriously in conversations but he is always doing that...he's making a point as he does it...but I don't care. I don't do that, I keep that for the camera, rehearsal time or theatre...not for a casual conversation about it. I told him something I have never told anyone else before, including my Mother. I told him about how in year 9 and 10, I use to see what I thought was the Grim Reaper and I use to physically run away from it in my house until it would go away...I don't what I saw back then, or if it was anything at all, but to make me run away from it - it was pretty darn powerful. Sometimes I think I still see it sometimes...but I'm older now and try to be more mature about these things and mentally stronger...I just say "no". That way it doesn't get the better of your fear and turn it into something more, something you would run away from.

Anyway the script for this thing, is so cute and by Bryn, so it was cool to spend more time with him. I adore him basically...he is just brilliant. The one person out there that I look up to without thinking, now how can I beat him?

We film this Saturday and I don't have rehearsals for TGITRD so that is great, because I can hang around at my Grandma's birthday for a while and then go off and film - lovely! I'm so excited because we have to kiss! Woo! I just hope that I do brilliantly. It is pretty much a short film that I didn't have to audition for, I have to make it great for Bryn...he seemed really happy with it during rehearsals........ohh, I'm so in love with it! I want it to be a feature film.

I'm gonna go now, too excited and sleepy to spend more time on a computer.

Love Always & Latro The Guinea Pigged Hamster and The Imaginary Lover!