The following blog has been reposted to my current blog to rid myself of multiple profiles and to also preserve the Idiot that was my 17 year old self.
In America and England women are getting 6-figure book deals just because their blogs were extremely well constructed and they are also well known in high societies and are all in the who's-who places, you know?
I think that is pretty cool. I mean, you think that Blogs are stupid ultimately, because here you are writing to nobody but yourself, but also a million strangers at the same time, so all your personal thoughts on anything are being read and reviewed by people you will never, and sometimes, hopefully never meet. But then if you're talented and are witty and thoughtful, which I wish I was, your Blog will eventually become famous. Well, maybe.
If anyone ever types into Google msn+spaces+neverland88, my space is the only one listed. So if anyone was ever high one night and for some reason decided to search for something random, that is what they would find...this. This wonderful little Blog that went from nearly almost cheery thoughts to a lot of gloomy and angry thoughts. I guess that is what comes with aging and all that sucky hormonal crap, and the stress that can go with year 12. Not that I feel that stressed now, I'm pretty much on track, and everything that ever needed to be handed in on time has been, and a lot of stuff is ahead of schedule, so thats awesome. Just as long as I don't lose track and get completely stupid and sit twiddling my thumbs while time to assignments wafts slowly by. Yes, wafts! Isn't that the most splendiferous word? Waft...in can bring so many good, yet quite a few more bad images to mind. Pie and farts are the most common thoughts swimming around my head right now.
Yes, OK, I guess that I've given it away through my lack of subtleness, that I would love to be a talented Blogger. But it's a talent I know I will never achieve, because I do tend to waffle on a lot! And unless someone had an extremely long amount of time to waste on their butts, nobody would ever read all of this. Anybody who is reading this here is a officially a Butt-Waster! Yes, not a Time-Waster...but a Butt-Waster, all its doing is gaining some fat, when it could be losing it with some walking around somewhere or even love making. I'm sure it works, I've read Cosmo. LoL.
Anyway whats been going on lately in Caitlin World? Well...the main news that has been annoying my brain, is my distinct lack of the feeling to care for anything on the News. Sure Bird Flu concerns me and all, and all the crap happening in Bali and America, and well, anywhere in general, is like: oh, that's sad. And I sincerely mean it. But when you have to write an article attacking the media for how it represented the topic, you kind of need to have a topic you are extremely passionate about so that you can see faults in how the media has represented it. But I'm not extremely passionate about anything on the news. Except for Diseases, so I started doing that, and then I realised that apart for the Media saying the words fear and panic maybe a few more times than needed, but other than that, they've been pretty good. Better than they were with that Meningococcal virus, you know, the one that all the schools (and I) got freaked about. Man, was that a really nervous time for me. I was such a Hypo-Chondriac! It sucked big time.
EDIT 10/05/10: I feel that now, after actually having read the news steadily for a few years, I would have done much better on this assignment and I regret my chosen subject to discuss. Blargh.
So anyway, I stopped that. And I was going to the Bali Bombing, but the news seemedto have represented that fine too. So I eventually decided to go with the ever popular Schapelle Corby, because in Wikipedia, they even mention how badly the media over did her representation, it was kind of crazy. So, yeah, I chose the easy route and it looks like it'll be pretty breezy.
I'll have to go soon and get ready for work. That is what else has been cool about this week, no work until now. It helped me get things done, not having to go to it. Though I am missing the money, I was so rich a few weeks ago, and now I'm more of a sponge bucket!
Man, I hope I was meant to start at 5pm. As far as I know I was. I'll feel really bad if I wasn't. It also wont look good. It said 5, so I wrote it down. Man, if it isnt I'll be buggered. They would've rung now if I was meant to be on.
What else is cool is that I'm going to the Taste of Chaos concert. I wasnt originally, I declined the offer to go, due to the fact that I believed I'd get mutilated. But I watched a Mosh Pit at that Coke Live N Local tour, and though Taste of Chaos will be much more hardcore, if I'm strong and healthy and aware of myself and whats happening, I'll be fine. I'll probably just go on the outskirts and dance anyway. Oooo, I better put away some money to get a t-shirt, because that'll be sweet! I'm going to collect a t-shirt from every concert I go too. So this time next week, I'll have 3. They get cooler every time!
I'm really enjoying rehearsals, but it is also starting to get bitchy and really frustrating as well. People getting in trouble, when they are not even in the scene. Getting told you cannot be heard when your singing your lungs off, and the way people are getting praised and criticized is really really not ethical. It's kind of painful, well it would be to me, if they were getting up me. They haven't done that yet, but I'm sure my time has come. I am putting in 100% or maybe just 80% into every rehearsal that I go to now. I want to be good in my part and do a good job for the musical. What I'm worried about is people coming, that know me, expecting me to be stupid and ab lib and you know try to make them laugh, because my lines aren't exactly funny, so I'm not a funny character. So that's a bit sad. But I am not going to ad lib! Not unless something funny and/or awkward happens. LoL.
I have to get Sarah a bday present and I should donate too.
Well this week has been an interesting one for me. No phone call. It's so sad, I tried so hard. And I've tried to be super good and I've also gotten super narky too. Due to the moon and the tides that be. I went to every school day and lesson, and only missed Care once! Once! I'm moving on up. I've also re-realised how much I dont want to end up in Suburbia as some old lady with 2 ugly and ratty kids. You know? I'm too ambitious, I cant let it happen to me. I'm on schedule and sent off everything that needs to be sent off, and nearly done eveything that needs to be done to make like smooth. I just wish something exciting would happen. I'm restless, I need some kind of spark in my life. But a good spark, nothing bad. However, if this Oakily Doakily mood keeps on up, I may have to change the background of my Blog.
If that happens, things have definitely changed and I've gone through a period of Blackness and am now re-stepping into the light. You know what, my music may be dark. But I feel good, and until I feel bad again this Blog is now going to be changed to something happy.
Enjoy!
Love Caitlin.
The Alright Daisy and The Futuristic Girl!
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