I found some crumpled pieces of paper amongst the belongings I brought back from America. After smoothing out the wrinkles, I saw that I had compiled a list, and suddenly a faded memory of sitting at my desk at work one day, writing things down that I liked because I kept forgetting what I did like... and it felt like I was forgetting myself.
EDIT: Before you throw up while reading this, scroll down to see my thoughts.
Things I Like
(in order of how I wrote it down at the time)
Banksy's art, Dali, Picasso, Monet, Gogh
Chinese food (weird transition, right?)
Coke Cola (not anymore, I'm trying to resist it)
Cleanliness (and my room here now is proof of that! Success at last!)
Uniball Vision Elite Pens (Yes. I did actually write this. My favourite kind of pen, so much ink...)
Ryan (judging by the people listed here, this must be early 08? During the days of Brooklyn hangouts and Rock Band sessions and me being a total loser, ugh) - then the pen changes colour... - Clean clothes Black nail-polish Colourful " Dark blue Red hair Bright eyes (not the band) People who are smarter than me Wearing clothes for the first time Eyeliner A messy appearance Art galleries Libraries Museums Bicycles Central Park Local beaches in Qld Summer, Autumn, Spring Winter fashion Funny people Crows The Beatles The Killers Faith No More Vast The Smiths David Bowie Alternative music Strings (guitar, violin, cello) Walking the streets of NYC at night The smells of the good kebab vendors on Broadway & Houston Female cab drivers French pubs Montmartre Bike riding in Paris Reading: history, science, fiction, modern, classic, philosophy, bios Cook books Friends over for dinner Making lists (O RLY?) An empty inbox Long emails from Emma Flirting through text messages (kind of, sort of, don't like to do this anymore) Liking boys secretly even though I know they'll never like me back Talent Theatre A crowd of people whispering quietly Going to class Taking notes Coffee and baguettes or croissants and au lait chocolat French pop music (whoa, way to be a young adult, Caitlin) Germany (though I've never been) The mystery surrounding olde missing people Last Words Arts and Humanities courses at NYU (at least I like the look of them, since I've never applied) iPhone Apps and Widgets (mmm, interest for these is close to zilch now) Listening to new music that I like Letting other people talk Watching people interact, especially if they are courting each other (oh whoa, creep-o) Basic Psychology Rock Band Bully!!! Staple-like stores in clothing, bath/beauty, stationery (Muji, perhaps?) Outdoor music concerts Buying tickets to events Running late New Opportunities Acting Reading plays Acting workshops Film and the art behind it Being an extra on set and watching the crew move together like one living organism (whoa, romanticize the industry much, Caitlin?) Actors (err, not really...I'm clearly growing up) Oddball people on the street
Well, if that wasn't a big pile of adolescent crap, I don't know what is. It started out kind of sincere and then I think I became self-conscious of the list-making and over-thought it. Blargh.