Sunday, 20 August 2006

A possibility?

Originally posted on Buzznet.

So I joined YouTube...and things got quite crazy. My video got featured and I've had quite a few hits...and over 9000 emails in my hotmail account. :( I'm a bit freaked about it actually. I have got more nice people than mean people I think, but they both comment in healthy even doses of love and hate, which keeps me sane.

I've never experienced this kind of attention before, and its freaking me out. There is so much pressure to make another video...to get featured again and get a million hits like the famous youtubers out there...but its just the internet...so I don't know why I feel so much pressure to be great.

I might be going to a interview as a receptionist at a law firm in beenleigh, so thats cool. Hope I get it. Good money, hours, and good place to work. And its a law firm for construction stuff...sounds kinda easy yet possibly complicated.

I've been eating way to much chocolate. Oh, I went to the EKKA and got fudge cuz they stopped selling showbags when i got there...i nearly cried. i was that disappointed cuz i have been wanting to go to the ekka for soooo long. ive never been before, well grandma says i went as a baby, but i cant remember so it doesnt count...i missed out on a lot of things, but went on my first upside-down carnie park ride, which ive always been too afraid to go on, so that was cool for me...my necklace fell behind my head and caught in my hair, so whenever it went upside down, i felt like i was being choked. chocked. lol, chocked. umm...my friend tamika was screaming her head off....it was sooo funny. afterwards we all went to the boyz old school and they drank and stuff and we just chatted, harry sent me a drunken rant that i asked grant to translate for me...he said that it means he likes me...its so complicated.

i was crazy on the train home, high on coke, fairy floss and chocolate icecream....coke really is my alcohol...i was all incoherent and all kinds of drunk on the train it was funny, and looking back on it it was also really pathetic looking.

saw grant tonight, we hung out, got food...played games...watched family guy, just hung out. he asked me to kiss him. i didnt. too afraid.

rehearsals for the pajama game were really good. we've learnt all the songs and i love singing like an american.

sorry for the crappy blogging, i know i usually type quite neatly...but nobody reads this anyway!

lovealways and latro thehill88 and obsessiveq


  • timijimi
    Hey, I am not a nobody! :P
    Aug 20, 2006
  • sam
    if ure coming to england go to cornwall or london i live there at both not beacuase of me but because there coll like you
    Aug 20, 2006
  • Hanibal
    I see you're a virgo. When is your birthday?
    Aug 20, 2006
  • anakin ryan
    Hi you dont know me but dont worry im not mental or anything :-)
    just saw your videos on youtube and i wanted to say i think your really funny and cute.
    just had to let you know cos it seems like funny cute people are kind of an endangered species these days.
    oh good luck with your interview by the way, all the best.
    Aug 20, 2006
  • Kal�
    Hey whats up... I saw your videos in YouTube and I love!!! Sorry for my english ok? I'm just a brazilian boy trying to speak english... for this I wanna to talk with you.. add me on you messenger ok??? or send me an email...
    I wanna to see you in the cinema! auhauha... kisses... see ya!
    Aug 20, 2006
  • sakuropc
    hi , i am from chile , xd mhhh , i dont know that say in english (because , i am from chile and... mhh my first language is spanish mhhh.. then.. may be that i will say thing with out sence and, u dont understand me ja aj ...

    i saw all ur videos in youtube , and , i dont know , why??? u have some, special, i dont know what u have, but, when i was see u.. i cant stop od see ur funny face... i think , that if u would lives here in Santiago of Chile.... aj aj xd forget...
    but.. fot more that i search more data about u .. i dont find T_T , and this day.. i was try of understand ur life... a kinda...mhhh.. i cant T_T
    i know , that u are graduaded (like me xd) and , u do theatre.mhhh and no more T_T but , i think that ur life is nice..xd
    now i have very much question about u
    are u in university????
    what say in ur crazy videos.. ???
    how will be talk with u??? in reality
    ok.. i wrotten very mush and the most probably that u will just read this , like one more
    may be , too that u dont read... this.. aj ajja or dont know , but just was want
    Aug 20, 2006
  • bluebonics
    this is funny... some of the responses you get... "I see you're a virgo"... sounds like we're at a bar... my favorite: "Hi you dont know me but dont worry im not mental or anything :-)" ... you gotta love that for an opening line...

    and just a hint, "was crazy on the train home, high on coke, fairy floss and chocolate icecream...." sounds like you were snorting lines in the bathroom of the train or something...

    one more hint and this one'll be serious... it's about youtube: don't feel pressured to "make another awesome video" because that only leads to crappy videos and frankly, if it wasn't for your oddness of character in that video response to lonelygirl i never would have become a fan, and stuff like that can't be analysed and packaged... it has to just flow (unlike your rap ;P)..

    in closing... i'd have to say that i am mental and umm... keep up the good work and whatnot or something
    Aug 20, 2006
  • bluebonics
    hmm.. how come the comment section asks for an e-mail and then only puts the link there when you first post and view it but upon subsequent views the link isn't there?
    Aug 20, 2006
  • anakin ryan
    lol glad you liked my opener bluebonics, its from the movie waynes world, you should watch it, its real funny.
    oh yeh you know that coke comment kinda had me giggling as well:-)
    Aug 21, 2006
  • Coppo68
    You sure got a lot of fans on YouTube, and now they're leeching here? Everyone's wanting to meet that superstar Caitlin! Anyway, I'm one of them. Hello, I'm Coppo.

    After watching your videos, I saw that you were not only cute, funny, wacky and a great dancer, but also interesting. Which is what led me to your website. 9000 e-mails? Wow, that's what happens when thousands of male single YouTube users want to get into your pants XD.

    Anyway, glad to finally meet you (or rather, post on your journal), looking forward to seeing more of that awesome aussie chick, and I wish I got drunk from coke *jealousy level rising*. ^_^

    -Coppo68
    Aug 21, 2006
  • anakin ryan
    oh hey just had a thought if you really are frigid your next rap video should be as cold as ice lmao :-)
    Aug 21, 2006
  • Garrett
    Cheers from Illinois, (US).... Haha like your videos and enjoyed reading what you have to say (Above). If you want to see who i am or somthing along those lines my youtube is:

    www.youtube.com/garrettmaxjuno

    Well best wishes,
    -Garr
    Aug 21, 2006
  • Thiago
    Well.. if people didnt.. I believe they have started reading by now. Im brazilian, and Im reading. In fact, you write quite well, and your videos are really funny. I imagine how it is to get about 9000 e-mails for something like that. You'll handle it, maybe you are even having fun.
    Don't mind about the mean comments, they just didnt know to appreciate it; maybe they even envy you. Well.. gotta go now.. before you think I am a crazy person for being here or something... :)
    Kisses.
    Aug 21, 2006
  • Fred
    Hi Caitlin. Just saw your clips on YouTube and read your blog. Both are great! You are hysterically funny in a perfect natural way. Don't let all this attention freak you out too much. And don't feel pressured to do another great clip. Just try to do what you would do anyway. It will be great even if it doesn't attract all the same hype. Anyway, thanks for the chuckles. You made my day better :-)
    Fred
    Aug 22, 2006
  • Todd Farkman
    "There is so much pressure to make another awesome video...to get featured again and get a million hits like the famous youtubers out there...but its just the internet...so I don't know why I feel so much pressure to be great."

    Not to be a downer, but I don't think the video was well-received because of a talented rap, I think it was more due to a flock of horny guys. You looked very cute, and you are a cute girl. Let me just say there's a reason why internet porn makes billions of rubles. If I posted a hottie likcking a popcicle, I'm guessing it would do well on youTube.

    Why do you think people watched lonely girl? :-/

    It's also the real-TV effect, people want to safely intrude on other people's lives.

    Just a little perspective, fwiw.
    Aug 26, 2006
  • ERica
    Another "not a no body"
    Aug 27, 2006
  • www.fotolog.com/beto_xexy
    you are due to feel now special which salts in Internet your you must feel now special that much people who pay attention to you your you must there feel special to do what few we obtained and is to remove a smile to the people although I believe perhaps that where you live you do not have the reality to the door of your house this mistaking but that I create I think that there many things that to make but that say and are one hurts that for expresarte something teng that to speak in another language serious but easy to speak all he himself language and thus many problems of wars and violences do not habrian good to not I bother you but and I hope that you pass “smile very well so long charming” good bye
    Aug 28, 2006
  • ToddToddFarkFark
    LMAO...was that "Internet is for Porn" comment for me? If so, I'm flattered. Here I thought I was talking to myself. :-D

    You're actually the first video monolog I've seen on youTube and having watched several more, to be honest, I'm kind of growing tired of them. It takes some giant balls to assume people want to sit and hear you ramble, no offense. Regardless, I did enjoy your mindless ramblings. :-P

    Are you going to do the "lick the popcicle in your undies" thing? I promise you'll be #1 again! Don't underestimate the animalistic and dull-witted attributes of the human male to get you far! Personally I'd rather you not get in your undies on youTube and I'm pretty sure you won't....

    Just fwiw, I am not implying I viewed your videos because I compared you to porn. Just that you are an attractive girl (woman?) and you were really cute in that rap video. Hey, that fat dude from NYC worked a lot harder on his video and rap, and it was better, but he doesn't look nearly half as cute as you. So go figure. Cute girls sell, fat hairy Puerto Rican Jews don't.

    Me thinks you were making fun of me, but that's fine. Seriously tho, how safe is it to give out your full name, etc? :-/ Do you think my name is Farkman? Yeee....no.

    But I like your "Internet is for Porn" as an album cover, kind of like "Meat is Murder". lol. How about this:

    And the flesh you so fancifully eye
    Is not succulent, tasty or kind
    Its porn for no reason
    And porn for no reason is the internet

    lol. I'm so terribly clever aren't I? At least I entertain myself....(not a reference to porn btw).

    Sorry for all the Smiths references, but that may be the only band we have in common?!?

    Good night, you kook.
    Aug 28, 2006

Wednesday, 9 August 2006

Humans Suck - Yes, that means you.

Originally posted on Buzznet.

I can't believe that this world has reached such a terrible crime & murder rate that we are able to make it television. And not just SVU and Criminal Intent or any of that shite, but reality TV...like The First 48 Hours or whatever its called...which follows police for the first 48 hours of discovering a murder...this show is so horribly graphic, showing real victims, real crime scenes...real blood and fatal injuries...and real people suffering from hearing of their loved ones being murdered. I just watched this one old lady on TV, after hearing that her friend had been murdered and her mouth fell open, and her eyes were so wide and she was so frail and weak looking that it truly was a horrifying sight...seeing someone recieve that bad news.

And I can't believe that after all these years, all these centuries of us hearing about slavery and learning all those lessons about the rights of humanity and the cruelty people have suffered throughout Earth's life span...that we still traffic humans, still sell sex slaves...and I can't believe that there are humans out there that are making the demand for these poor people.

I could not imagine being sold as a sex slave or being touched by a man so much older than me...can you imagine the pain - emotionally and physically...and the trauma that you would suffer so that you either got seriously screwed up or became numb to all feeling...?

Can you?

Do you people even know about this? Do we even realize that every second of the day that we are worrying about that idiot boy liking me or our boss having a bitch about us...that somewhere in the world not too far from us, young children are being sold for sex to 40+ year old men and their "boss" is currently selling them to a larger market, putting them through horrible conditions in vans or containers and selling them like cattle...beating them, starving them, killing them if they let their "leader" down??

Do we even realize this...I'm am fucking glad that I do now. All my worries and troubles are so much simpler and so much fucking easier to deal with... I have got it so friggin lucky that it is unreal...I mean - so do you...so don't you dare have an Emo whinge you silly people, think about the real issues in this world...and the kids out there that are your age and would give everything they had to be able to live in your oh-so-cruel world. EDIT 09/16/10: Says I, when my blogs are just me whining all the time. Sigh.

I can't believe this...I mean, I can...but it's so horrible, I don't want to. I can't believe that this world is so beautiful but we are humans are so filthy and disgusting... We all cheat, lie, steal, hate and feel all those stupid primal things that were stamped into our genes thousands of years ago...

This world is beautiful...

"I am in a world of shit."

Yet, I want to still live in it, I want to still love in it and have a happy life...I want to still be faithful to a God and be kind to all people...

I swear that I will do something to help these people. I don't care if that means charities or adoption...just one little thing to make someones life better...

Geez, if I could be Angelina Jolie right now...I'd be also concentrating on what is happening on her own soil, her own continent...some of the worst of the world is right at her doorstep.

...but in my own selfish world...I'll be booking a driving test soon, working too much, regretting auditioning for the pajama game, and signing up as the sound technician for Cinderella Kids...and loving the Altar Boyz - google them.

Wow, I thought my life was difficult and frustrating...it's just so unfair to be so unequal with so many other people in the world...if we could only have equal footing...I don't know what else to say about it.

Humans suck - can't live with them, can't live without them.

Latro - The ... fuck it.

EDIT 09/16/10: Stand up or shut up, Caitlin.


  • timijimi
    "I mean - so do you...so don't you dare have an Emo whinge you silly people, think about the real issues in this world...and the kids out there that are your age and would give everything they had to be able to live in your oh-so-cruel world."

    I couldn't have put it better myself. Very deep and thoughtful Caitlin. One of the best things I ever got out of travelling was realising how sweet life is here in Australia. We really don't have many cares. We are extremely privileged. There is so much shit going on out there right now - in every corner of the world. It's funny to think that most of the stuff we see on our news (murders etc) wouldn't even make the news in other countries if it happened there because of the frequency of it occurring.
    Aug 10, 2006
  • bluebonics
    eeh... didn't expect this one to be this serious... in regards to the content i'd have to agree with you... humans do suck... a wise man once said "there are only two things that are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and i'm not sure about the former" ... i'm sure everyone's heard this quote by now and knows who it's attributed to (probably one of the most thrown around quotes i've seen) but it, without a doubt, is relevant to your post.
    Aug 20, 2006
  • MIguel
    Yes humans do suck and the murder rate does suck it is at an all time high i live in what is now sais the new york times the deadliest city in the world compton CA. And whats really messed up is that the people here are proud to be known as killers! so yea humans do suck
    Aug 20, 2006
  • Robert
    LOL, I work in a State Prison and I see Human Stupidity EVERY SINGLE DAY. I can't believe the things we humans are capable of either.
    Aug 27, 2006
  • TOmmo
    Yo cheeky girl, You really have to get away from Brisbane. Look what its doing to you. Kinda reminds me of the saying "You are only young once, but you can stay immature forever" It seems so true in a spooky way. Dont come down to Sydney though - it'll kill you!!
    Aug 29, 2006
  • Todd
    "Geez, if I could be Angelina Jolie right now...I'd be also concentrating on what is happening on her own soil, her own continent...some of the worst of the world is right at her doorstep."

    On her own soil? You think America is worse than Africa or Asia? Aren't you near Asia, don't you know about the AIDS epidemic in India or the extreme poverty there? Me thinks you've never been to America like you claim.

    The poor in America are the rich of impoverished Africa and Asia. People complain in the USA about poverty, but that's nothing compared to other countries. People aren't starving in the US, in fact they're too goddam fat. The poverty in the US is "I have to take the bus instead of driving my own car" or "I don't have health care coverage". Obviously issues people take seriously, but nothing compared to the folks in Nigeria or Sudan or Bangledash.

    I thought you watched the OC. Sure they're skinny, but they aren't starving.

    And Canada is definately not starving and neither is Mexico. That's all we have on this continent.

    Now violence is another issue, but Jolie is about poverty, not violence. That's another can of worms.
    Sep 03, 2006
  • f16crewdawg
    Caitlin I missed this one before and I feel compeled to make a few comments. You know Winston Churchill once said "Show me a young person who is conservative and I will show you a person who has no heart, Show me an old person who is liberal and I will show you a person who has no brain." I truely hope that at your young age you dont lose your idealism because you have figured out the true nature of humanity at such a young age. Unfortunately in this world there are very evil and sick people but for every one of those there are 10 good people. You are right there are few truely beautiful people on this planet but they are out there. A shining example for me was Mother Teresa. Its great that you have compassion for the suffering but a piece of advice dont lose your idealism too young.
    Sep 15, 2006

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