I must say that I was extremely frustrated by the amount of stupid people that watched my video about Magibon. I did have an idea that it would come…I guess I was just naïve.
I don’t care if you love her or hate her…even though I must admit I do not understand it, but there are a lot of things I don’t understand.
Let me first just tell you to not judge me and assume that I just don’t enjoy watching people who speak anything other than English.
What a huge insult.
Not only does that mean that you assume I am conceited, it means that you are commenting to me and criticizing me without knowing me at all (I’m not criticizing Magibon, just questioning her). I absolutely adore most (good) foreign films I see. I loved Crouching Tiger etc and Amelie changed my life, and I’m actually subscribed to a girl who speaks Dutch or something, but I can tell she is great, really enthusiastic…so we can cross out that suspicion.
So why my attitude?
Why my distrust of her authenticity?
I suppose as a girl, I know the tricks of the trade that webgrrls use to get views… and that whole cutesy silent thing, speaking a different language… It seems like she is playing by all the rules in that little black book.
I am also fairly certain that Men are attracted to Women they cannot communicate properly with. All you have to do is watch the movie Birthday Girl and you’ll see that play out. It’s exotic, erotic… Hell, women are huge fans of fantasizing about making love with foreign men.
Maybe it is something in our biological nature?
In the beginning of Man, I’m sure we all talked in a series of grunts and gestures and eventually we came to understand what they meant (just like learning a language). So maybe the reason why we are all so fascinated by foreigners and that kind of erotic fantasy is that it takes us back in time to a place where the body had complete rule. There were no mind games or insecure thoughts.
You felt an urge,
you found a hole
and you grunted all the way.
So when you meet someone attractive, that you can’t understand, the attraction grows purely because it is in our genes to be attracted to that originally.
Don’t you think that makes sense? I hope you don’t find this uncomfortable. I myself am fascinated about it, which brings me back my original topic: Jealousy.
The definition of Jealousy is:
noun ( pl. -ousies)
the state or feeling of being jealous : a sharp pang of jealousy | resentments and jealousies festered.
ORIGIN Middle English : from Old French gelosie, from gelos (see jealous ).
1 he was consumed with jealousy envy, covetousness; resentment, resentfulness, bitterness, spite; informal the green-eyed monster.
2 the jealousy of his long-suffering wife suspicion, suspiciousness, distrust, mistrust, insecurity, anxiety; possessiveness, overprotectiveness.
Well, that’s interesting. The only pangs I have been feeling are those of anger towards the Stupid/Ignorant/Gross people on YouTube.
Do I resent her? No. She has taken nothing from me personally; she has not done anything to harm me…so how can I resent her actions?
Bitter? Maybe. I can’t pretend I’m a cheerleader going, “Yay for that Chick!” However, if I could be so bold and change bitter with confused, that would be a much better fit.
And my eyes may be green, but this lady rarely occupies my thoughts… except for the last few hours while pouring over the comments.
Suspicion? Now, that I can agree with. While people have been jumping to her defense, they have been letting slip things they know or at least, suspect about this girl. The most common one used is that she is just making these videos so she can go to Japan and be in a TV show. Right… So she is supposedly using all of you delighted fans. And yet, I’m being told I’m in the wrong? Awesome.
The second one is that she lives only 3 hours out of New York. So she definitely is American and yet she is speaking Japanese.
Now! Don’t yell at me…
I know just as well as you do that people are allowed to speak Japanese… it’s the “act” that she puts on. I don’t want to stereotype anyone (though I admit, I often do), but we have all seen that Japanese Anime Girl in our favourite Anime films, the whole Harashuku Girl thing (made even more popular by Gwen Stefani), that whole culture of truly creative women living in Asia who go to extreme lengths to stand out and have influenced fashion (especially the “Emo” fashion) around the world… We’ve seen this all before and she is cashing in on it. It is tiring and boring to me.
What about Applemilk1988? She is American, loves the Japanese culture and speaks Japanese…but she doesn’t put on the whole act.
THAT is what I’m getting at. THAT is what frustrates me.
I don’t see any authenticity in Magibon, it seems like a complete act. I know its just YouTube and everyone is acting, but then you add the fact that she hardly ever talks and there you go, you get me, bitter and confused that any girl could truly enjoy posting a vision of herself that way.
So, Mistrust? Check.
Maybe I feel that way, because I have learnt that acting like an “idiot” (though appealing to many people who just want to laugh and smile) is not respectful. Being respected is the most important thing in the world to me. If you don’t have any respect for yourself and nobody has any respect for you, then how can you truly go about enjoying who you are? I’m not talking about changing yourself, but THINKING. You don’t know me well, but I am extremely fascinated with THINKING AND LEARNING. I may goof around, but knowledge is another one of the most important things to me…and I suppose I just grew tired of people assuming I knew nothing.
As for all the others definitions: nope, not me. I won’t lie though. I’m insecure about most things, but not about this. You can decide you don’t like me after all, that the Caitlin you subscribed to has now changed, but I know that the things I speak are the truth, are the reality and that I’m real. You think you know these YouTubers out there? You don’t. I know them. And it’s all an act. Maybe that’s why I don’t often get along with Chris Crocker, because we’re so alike, we’re honest…and people don’t like that. That’s why they are on YouTube, to blur the lines of reality… But what will we say to our children and our children’s children when they ask us about our lives?
“Oh, I was on the Internet.”
Great story, Grandma.